Give a damn

Maybe I

Need to leave

To run

Be free

Not feel trapped

I’d crawl out

Of my skin

Given the chance

A change

Of pace

I need a plan

Get out of bed

Give a damn

Scars (the one I won’t talk about)

As I try to find the words

For how you fucked me up

I realized there’s nothing to say

But with the scars I’m stuck

You took me to my lowest point

A hole you dug yourself

Convinced me it was only you

And to push everyone else out

You made me feel crazy

For thinking things that were real

Every time I would question

You’d start to spin the wheel

To how I didn’t trust you

Didn’t love you

Couldn’t feel

Made me out to be

Just some little broken thing

Who couldn’t see the truth

The one that you did choose

Every fight was ended

With the same empty threat

Lock the bathroom door

Say you should kill yourself

Leaving me pleading

Begging to help

Now looking back

I finally see you

The coward

The liar

The vile cheat

There were so many things

You wouldn’t let me see

How you used me

Abused me

Made me question myself

Now I fear I’m ruined

Never to trust someone else

The End

With one word 
I hear ten

It’s got me on

The move again

To run so fast

So far way

A place where I

Can disappear 

Somewhere that won’t 

Hold such fear

I feel you slip

Move away

I knew the day

Would come to pass

Nothing good

In my life lasts

Winters Night

In the dead of the night

With nowhere else to go

I’ll watch the snow fall

As the howling wind blows

I’ll let the cold burrow

Deep into my bones

I’ll let my thoughts scatter

Into the unknown

Wondering what it’ll take

For me to feel at home

Wondering if I’ll ever 

Stop feeling so alone

It took the silence of a snow fall

To ease my trembling heart

With the darkness of the world 

I realized mine wasn’t falling apart

As the cold seeped in

I realized that while it might be thin

My soul was there

With out a tear

It might be a little worse for wear

But it’s still there

Lonely Fate. 

I won’t wake up and roll over

To kiss anyone’s face

I’ll never come home

To a warm embrace

That’s just a fantasy 

That I’ll never know

It feels like it’s destiny

That I’ll end up alone

I’ve heard every reason 

Know ever excuse

“Too good. Not enough.

I just can’t handle you.”

Some people are so lucky

They don’t even know 

To have someone who won’t

Think of letting go

Tonight’s another night 

I’ll go home on my own

In the morning I’ll face fate 

I’m meant to be alone

Soul on Fire

The little girl

With a soul so sweet

Never did any wrong 

That you could see

Your little girl

With her soul on fire

Pull up her sleeve 

And call her a liar

You can’t see the sadness 

She hides deep inside

Like she can’t see her light

Or how it shines

The little girl

With a soul so sweet

Never did any wrong

To anybody

Else, besides herself

Pull up her sleeve

And see

How the good do bleed

Unattached

You say you can’t

Handle this

Can’t handle me

Because one day

You’ll have to leave

You can’t get attached

For fear of getting stuck

You’re so glad 

We’ve never fucked

You won’t hold my hand

But you’ll kiss me in the dark

Cuddle up until

You’ve got a grip on my heart

I know you say 

You’ll have to leave one day

But what about me

I know you can’t

Get attached

Because of feelings

You might have

Should I sit here

While you make up you mind

Deciding if being with me

Would be fine

Let you waste 

All of my time

I guess that’s fine

You say you want this 

But you don’t know

So maybe it should be me

Who decides if you go

Hold it against me. 

I get so close to

Breaking my shell

Burning my walls 

Letting you in

But then you have me

Mixing up cement again

I try to reach out

But you slap my hand

Tell me you know me

Know exactly how I am

I can’t help you 

So you’ll help yourself

But can’t you see 

It’s you who

Shuts me out

Turns me down

Slams the door in my face

But that’s how I am

At the end of the day

At least you won’t hold it against me

Or so you say

Unnoticed 

There was no fight

Or bitter words

The falling out

Went quite unheard 

The silence came

In a slow diminuendo

Much as it started 

With a quick crescendo 
Never noticed 

As things went

Did not think

I’d lose a friend

Since no fight was had

No bitter words

A quiet end 

Went all unheard 

Doesn’t Concern Me

When I said it wasn’t my business

I meant I wanted it to be

I was bothered by the things

That shouldn’t have concerned me

Because I found myself wanting 

More than I should be

Knowing all along 

It would never come to be

But I’ll still take your calls

All night until the morning

And hang out with you

Even when we’re boring

I hide the stupid thoughts

Inside my head

Keep them there 

Until I’m dead

Because I wish you knew 

That when I said

It wasn’t my business

I wanted it to be