Lonely Fate. 

I won’t wake up and roll over

To kiss anyone’s face

I’ll never come home

To a warm embrace

That’s just a fantasy 

That I’ll never know

It feels like it’s destiny

That I’ll end up alone

I’ve heard every reason 

Know ever excuse

“Too good. Not enough.

I just can’t handle you.”

Some people are so lucky

They don’t even know 

To have someone who won’t

Think of letting go

Tonight’s another night 

I’ll go home on my own

In the morning I’ll face fate 

I’m meant to be alone

Limbo

Show me what you feel

And show me what you mean

Show me because sometimes

I put too much into how things seem

Tell me what you know

And tell me what you think

So I don’t have to guess

I make the worst of everything

Prove that you care

Or even that you don’t

One thing I cannot stand 

Is staying in limbo

Forever of the edge

Of maybe, maybe not

The fear of never knowing

If it is, or if not

So won’t you just tell me

What you know and what you think

So I can put an end 

To my constant questioning 

Waste My Time. 

I’m always meant to wait

While someone else

Decides my fate

I’m always told to stay

Maybe they’ll want me someday

And maybe they won’t

They’ll walk away unscathed 

Leaving my heart broke

And I’m sure I’ll apologize 

For wasting all their time
But what about mine?

Unattached

You say you can’t

Handle this

Can’t handle me

Because one day

You’ll have to leave

You can’t get attached

For fear of getting stuck

You’re so glad 

We’ve never fucked

You won’t hold my hand

But you’ll kiss me in the dark

Cuddle up until

You’ve got a grip on my heart

I know you say 

You’ll have to leave one day

But what about me

I know you can’t

Get attached

Because of feelings

You might have

Should I sit here

While you make up you mind

Deciding if being with me

Would be fine

Let you waste 

All of my time

I guess that’s fine

You say you want this 

But you don’t know

So maybe it should be me

Who decides if you go

Doesn’t Concern Me

When I said it wasn’t my business

I meant I wanted it to be

I was bothered by the things

That shouldn’t have concerned me

Because I found myself wanting 

More than I should be

Knowing all along 

It would never come to be

But I’ll still take your calls

All night until the morning

And hang out with you

Even when we’re boring

I hide the stupid thoughts

Inside my head

Keep them there 

Until I’m dead

Because I wish you knew 

That when I said

It wasn’t my business

I wanted it to be

8/22/16

I’m sorry that

you feel this way

So sorry that

You feel this pain

A friendship lost

To love too great

A bitter end

Unwanted fate

You’re in pain

But I can’t feel

Tell me dear

Is this real?

You run 

You hide

You’re off again

It makes me think

It’s all pretend

Drunken words

Spoke too soon

Now I don’t know 

What to do

The Other Side of Things

What if you fall out of love

Or decide it wasn’t enough

That could be the end of me

The end of everything

I’m okay alone

I finally see

Now you’re changing everything

I don’t want to try

But I will for you

I’d do anything you asked me to

So maybe I will

Because I’m falling

Farther down

I’m farther now

Than I ever wanted to be

Farther down

Losing ground

But I’ll be fine

As long as at the bottom

It’s your arms I find

Two Years

Two years ago

To the day

You had my heart

But you had your way

With that girl

Who was ‘just a friend’

The one about my worries

You said should end

She was the first

But not the last

I know of all

Them that you had

Two years ago

And now I do find

It’s her again

She’s back at your side

Late night messages to soothe your own heart

Oh how you wish to go back to the start

I left, I went so far away

Still your choices haunt my everyday

You follow me like a dark plague

Wish you’d move on, leave me alone

So I don’t have to fear the sound of my phone

RUN

Just another girl

Waiting for the day

That her knight will come

Take her breath away

But life is not a fairy tale

Don’t you dare forget

If you do believe

I’ll tell you what you’ll get

A broken heart

A mind that bleeds

Sadness so deep

You cannot see

Life is not a fairy tale

Your knight will not come

Best to take what you’ve got

And if they say love

Run.

I hope this is what you wanted
Now this is all you’ve got
A broken girl who hates herself
The images don’t stop
They run through her head
Like a broken record plays
There are enough of them
To last the girl for days
Her restless mind won’t let her sleep
Its a miracle she even eats
But this is what you get
All the lies she can’t forget
Like a song that just won’t quit
Its in her head every little bit
And its there to stay
To remind her each and every day
How she just isn’t enough
How this ‘love’ shit is tough
It’ll happen again
Like the ink falls from pen
A story that’s been told
A poem waiting to unfold
The creases of the paper say
How she’s just another girl
It’s just another day