Scars (the one I won’t talk about)

As I try to find the words

For how you fucked me up

I realized there’s nothing to say

But with the scars I’m stuck

You took me to my lowest point

A hole you dug yourself

Convinced me it was only you

And to push everyone else out

You made me feel crazy

For thinking things that were real

Every time I would question

You’d start to spin the wheel

To how I didn’t trust you

Didn’t love you

Couldn’t feel

Made me out to be

Just some little broken thing

Who couldn’t see the truth

The one that you did choose

Every fight was ended

With the same empty threat

Lock the bathroom door

Say you should kill yourself

Leaving me pleading

Begging to help

Now looking back

I finally see you

The coward

The liar

The vile cheat

There were so many things

You wouldn’t let me see

How you used me

Abused me

Made me question myself

Now I fear I’m ruined

Never to trust someone else

Winters Night

In the dead of the night

With nowhere else to go

I’ll watch the snow fall

As the howling wind blows

I’ll let the cold burrow

Deep into my bones

I’ll let my thoughts scatter

Into the unknown

Wondering what it’ll take

For me to feel at home

Wondering if I’ll ever 

Stop feeling so alone

It took the silence of a snow fall

To ease my trembling heart

With the darkness of the world 

I realized mine wasn’t falling apart

As the cold seeped in

I realized that while it might be thin

My soul was there

With out a tear

It might be a little worse for wear

But it’s still there

Lonely Fate. 

I won’t wake up and roll over

To kiss anyone’s face

I’ll never come home

To a warm embrace

That’s just a fantasy 

That I’ll never know

It feels like it’s destiny

That I’ll end up alone

I’ve heard every reason 

Know ever excuse

“Too good. Not enough.

I just can’t handle you.”

Some people are so lucky

They don’t even know 

To have someone who won’t

Think of letting go

Tonight’s another night 

I’ll go home on my own

In the morning I’ll face fate 

I’m meant to be alone

Soul on Fire

The little girl

With a soul so sweet

Never did any wrong 

That you could see

Your little girl

With her soul on fire

Pull up her sleeve 

And call her a liar

You can’t see the sadness 

She hides deep inside

Like she can’t see her light

Or how it shines

The little girl

With a soul so sweet

Never did any wrong

To anybody

Else, besides herself

Pull up her sleeve

And see

How the good do bleed

Limbo

Show me what you feel

And show me what you mean

Show me because sometimes

I put too much into how things seem

Tell me what you know

And tell me what you think

So I don’t have to guess

I make the worst of everything

Prove that you care

Or even that you don’t

One thing I cannot stand 

Is staying in limbo

Forever of the edge

Of maybe, maybe not

The fear of never knowing

If it is, or if not

So won’t you just tell me

What you know and what you think

So I can put an end 

To my constant questioning 

Waste My Time. 

I’m always meant to wait

While someone else

Decides my fate

I’m always told to stay

Maybe they’ll want me someday

And maybe they won’t

They’ll walk away unscathed 

Leaving my heart broke

And I’m sure I’ll apologize 

For wasting all their time
But what about mine?

Unnoticed 

There was no fight

Or bitter words

The falling out

Went quite unheard 

The silence came

In a slow diminuendo

Much as it started 

With a quick crescendo 
Never noticed 

As things went

Did not think

I’d lose a friend

Since no fight was had

No bitter words

A quiet end 

Went all unheard 

Doesn’t Concern Me

When I said it wasn’t my business

I meant I wanted it to be

I was bothered by the things

That shouldn’t have concerned me

Because I found myself wanting 

More than I should be

Knowing all along 

It would never come to be

But I’ll still take your calls

All night until the morning

And hang out with you

Even when we’re boring

I hide the stupid thoughts

Inside my head

Keep them there 

Until I’m dead

Because I wish you knew 

That when I said

It wasn’t my business

I wanted it to be

Without You

Confusion and dread

Left alive not dead

Missing my mind

Missing it all

I held your hand

Watched your chest

Rise and fall

Your pulse it slowed

We all did know

Now I’m a mess

A confused wreck

This isn’t it

How it should be

You shouldn’t have been

Taken from me

Far too young

With too little time

And now without you

I’ll live my life

Stay

Everyone has that perfect dream

The way they wish life could be

The things they’d change…

Nothing would be the same

It’s such a shame to live that way

To change the present, future, past

To take back all the memories you have

You might not be perfect

Nobody is

That’s what make it

So worth it to live

So fill the empty

Heal the skin

Maybe even let them in

Fill the empty

Heal the skin

And don’t you ever

Cut it again

There’s no shame

No reason to hide

Can’t you see?

This is your only life

So live the life you want

and heal the things that haunt

At the end of the day

Through all the shit that’s thrown your way

I hope you stay