Give a damn

Maybe I

Need to leave

To run

Be free

Not feel trapped

I’d crawl out

Of my skin

Given the chance

A change

Of pace

I need a plan

Get out of bed

Give a damn

Waste My Time. 

I’m always meant to wait

While someone else

Decides my fate

I’m always told to stay

Maybe they’ll want me someday

And maybe they won’t

They’ll walk away unscathed 

Leaving my heart broke

And I’m sure I’ll apologize 

For wasting all their time
But what about mine?

Unattached

You say you can’t

Handle this

Can’t handle me

Because one day

You’ll have to leave

You can’t get attached

For fear of getting stuck

You’re so glad 

We’ve never fucked

You won’t hold my hand

But you’ll kiss me in the dark

Cuddle up until

You’ve got a grip on my heart

I know you say 

You’ll have to leave one day

But what about me

I know you can’t

Get attached

Because of feelings

You might have

Should I sit here

While you make up you mind

Deciding if being with me

Would be fine

Let you waste 

All of my time

I guess that’s fine

You say you want this 

But you don’t know

So maybe it should be me

Who decides if you go

Hit and Run

Always looking for the better
So I ignore the best
So afraid to settle
That I’ll never rest
No matter what I’m given
It’s alway second best
I’m so afraid of happiness
It’s what I’ll never get


I tear myself apart
Both inside and out
I hate myself enough
For everyone else
If you give a complement
I’ll laugh and say no way
Because I do know the truth
At the end of the day
You all see the shell
The hair and make up done
But inside its like a hit and run

This Side.

I keep a cool front.

I’m clam, level headed.

In control.

Issues? None.

I’m

In

Control

But I don’t know.

I don’t.

I know

I’m failing

Falling

It’s all pretend.

Don’t want to be me.

Or be my friend.

Psychotic

Fucked up

Terrible, mean

and that’s just the one side of me.

See?

Suppression

Repression

I’ll try anything

Please,

Just help me

hide

This side of me.