Unattached

You say you can’t

Handle this

Can’t handle me

Because one day

You’ll have to leave

You can’t get attached

For fear of getting stuck

You’re so glad 

We’ve never fucked

You won’t hold my hand

But you’ll kiss me in the dark

Cuddle up until

You’ve got a grip on my heart

I know you say 

You’ll have to leave one day

But what about me

I know you can’t

Get attached

Because of feelings

You might have

Should I sit here

While you make up you mind

Deciding if being with me

Would be fine

Let you waste 

All of my time

I guess that’s fine

You say you want this 

But you don’t know

So maybe it should be me

Who decides if you go

The Tyrant Inside

How wrong it is

How wrong it should be

That I have this insistent need

To change all that comes

So very naturally to me

It scares me more than anything

That’s not who I want to be

Anything that’s like you

Every sign, every need

Every look in the mirror

It’s not me that I see

It’s you

Trapped inside

Trying to get out

I push you down

For no one to find

But I know it’s there

I feel it all the time

Like a vicious tyrant

It controls everything

It takes control of me

Fading

I try not to write and seem so sad

Always focused on the bad

I guess that’s all I’ve ever had

All the good I can’t see

What the hell is wrong with me

Losing focus; lose my mind

Happiness I cannot find

The good it fades far too fast

It’s the negative that seems to last

Heart Games

Give it our all

Try it again

Time and time

Over and over again

It’s no game

And yet we play

Bet our hearts

To find our fate

At some point

We all break

Yet we play it

Like a game

There’s no win

It never ends

The only Reprieve

Waits at death

This Song

Your song plays still

In my heart

It’s all that

Keeps me together

Since you tore me apart

The words continue

An endless loop

They haunt we while

You live on

How I wish

I could kill this song

The day you went

And left me here

That day you broke me

In the very worst sort of way

All that’s left

Is this song

Stuck so far in my head

I can’t sing along

Your haunting melody

Leaves me unglued

So I will forget it

As I’m forgetting you

There’s a time for Pain

And a time to part

Now I need to clear my heart

You’re nothing but a memory

A song that no longer plays for me

You were here

You were real

Now it’s time for me to heal

You broke me down

But I’m fine

And I hope you will be

In due time

RUN

Just another girl

Waiting for the day

That her knight will come

Take her breath away

But life is not a fairy tale

Don’t you dare forget

If you do believe

I’ll tell you what you’ll get

A broken heart

A mind that bleeds

Sadness so deep

You cannot see

Life is not a fairy tale

Your knight will not come

Best to take what you’ve got

And if they say love

Run.

Forget you

I’m gonna forget you

Forget your name

Just another face

In the back of my brain

 

Won’t crave your touch

It was all too much

Heat of the moment

Excitement and lust

 

Forget you

You’ll never call

Not like we ever had

Anything at all

Forget you forgetting me

I was just another

Of your victories

Party Girl

Party girl

She can’t see

How much 

She worries me

Late at night 

I can’t sleep

Wonder if

She still breathes

Party girl

She wont see

She’s killing herself

She kills me

Party girl 

She has the world

In her head 

In her own world

Nothing left 

For her to hold

This is what’s

Been warned

What she’s been told

She’ll put up

Another fight

Just another day

For another night

Party girl

You’ll end up dead

I can see it now

Like a story I’ve read

Write.

Line by line

And word for word

Writing makes voices heard

I’ve never had much to say

But with a pen

Words;

I will display

Not always pretty

I’ll admit

But nothing could make me quit

I’m writing now

I will write on

I’ll be writing

Until I’m gone