Show me what you feel

And show me what you mean

Show me because sometimes

I put too much into how things seem

Tell me what you know

And tell me what you think

So I don’t have to guess

I make the worst of everything

Prove that you care

Or even that you don’t

One thing I cannot stand 

Is staying in limbo

Forever of the edge

Of maybe, maybe not

The fear of never knowing

If it is, or if not

So won’t you just tell me

What you know and what you think

So I can put an end 

To my constant questioning 



Why do I always feel so dead

I get so lost inside my head

Why can’t I connect

I’d rather just stay in bed

I don’t want to eat

Or work

Or see my friends 

Why do I always feel so dead

An empty heart and air filled head

Why do I feel so dead

Waste My Time. 

I’m always meant to wait

While someone else

Decides my fate

I’m always told to stay

Maybe they’ll want me someday

And maybe they won’t

They’ll walk away unscathed 

Leaving my heart broke

And I’m sure I’ll apologize 

For wasting all their time
But what about mine?


You say you can’t

Handle this

Can’t handle me

Because one day

You’ll have to leave

You can’t get attached

For fear of getting stuck

You’re so glad 

We’ve never fucked

You won’t hold my hand

But you’ll kiss me in the dark

Cuddle up until

You’ve got a grip on my heart

I know you say 

You’ll have to leave one day

But what about me

I know you can’t

Get attached

Because of feelings

You might have

Should I sit here

While you make up you mind

Deciding if being with me

Would be fine

Let you waste 

All of my time

I guess that’s fine

You say you want this 

But you don’t know

So maybe it should be me

Who decides if you go

Hold it against me. 

I get so close to

Breaking my shell

Burning my walls 

Letting you in

But then you have me

Mixing up cement again

I try to reach out

But you slap my hand

Tell me you know me

Know exactly how I am

I can’t help you 

So you’ll help yourself

But can’t you see 

It’s you who

Shuts me out

Turns me down

Slams the door in my face

But that’s how I am

At the end of the day

At least you won’t hold it against me

Or so you say


There was no fight

Or bitter words

The falling out

Went quite unheard 

The silence came

In a slow diminuendo

Much as it started 

With a quick crescendo 
Never noticed 

As things went

Did not think

I’d lose a friend

Since no fight was had

No bitter words

A quiet end 

Went all unheard 

Doesn’t Concern Me

When I said it wasn’t my business

I meant I wanted it to be

I was bothered by the things

That shouldn’t have concerned me

Because I found myself wanting 

More than I should be

Knowing all along 

It would never come to be

But I’ll still take your calls

All night until the morning

And hang out with you

Even when we’re boring

I hide the stupid thoughts

Inside my head

Keep them there 

Until I’m dead

Because I wish you knew 

That when I said

It wasn’t my business

I wanted it to be


Why am I so down

Why am I so blue

Why can’t I enjoy

The things I used to do

My words fall short 

Of what I feel

Don’t know how

To express what’s real

I hold the negative

With a fierce grip

Attatched with pain

As if at the hip

Why am I so down 

Why am I so blue

Why can’t I 

Get through to you


I’m sorry that

you feel this way

So sorry that

You feel this pain

A friendship lost

To love too great

A bitter end

Unwanted fate

You’re in pain

But I can’t feel

Tell me dear

Is this real?

You run 

You hide

You’re off again

It makes me think

It’s all pretend

Drunken words

Spoke too soon

Now I don’t know 

What to do

Like Me

I never wanted her to be like me

Think like me

Tear herself to shreds like me

We weren’t meant to share this cruel destiny

She was supposed to be smart like me

Sharp like me

With out the hate I have for myself

She was supposed to feel the love

Like someone else

But now I see

What I missed

The thoughts so hidden

A terrible twist

She’s like me

My greatest fear

She hides it so deep 

For no one to see
Just like me