I pushed to much
You let me know
I pushed to far
You’re letting go
Distance so long
I couldn’t cross it in miles
A heart so empty
Like you turned down the dials
I should have let it be
I shouldn’t have forced it so
Hard that it died
Right before my eyes
I tried to make it grow
But now you’re letting go
Not quick or all at once
With a step then another one
I can see you take it slow
Some thing I should have known
Because you told me so
Maybe I
Need to leave
To run
Be free
Not feel trapped
I’d crawl out
Of my skin
Given the chance
A change
Of pace
I need a plan
Get out of bed
Give a damn
I never claimed to be strong
I know I am weak
I know I am things I shouldn’t be
I know I am wrong
That it’s all on me
I know I should try
To change these things I cannot see
You say you aren’t sick
Or tired or me
But the way you push
Says a story you won’t say
Shows me how you feel
Why you push me away
I feel like an alien
In my own skin
With a brain like
The walking dead
A werewolf that
Can never change
A vampire gone unfed
I’ve been broken
Far too long
Wrote more than one
Too many sad song
At the bottom
I do fine
Drag me up
And I’ll hide
Self preservation
Mixes with fear
The bad is all
I’ll ever hear
Look to the future
But see that past
The one that broke
The one life I had
As I try to find the words
For how you fucked me up
I realized there’s nothing to say
But with the scars I’m stuck
–
You took me to my lowest point
A hole you dug yourself
Convinced me it was only you
And to push everyone else out
You made me feel crazy
For thinking things that were real
Every time I would question
You’d start to spin the wheel
To how I didn’t trust you
Didn’t love you
Couldn’t feel
Made me out to be
Just some little broken thing
Who couldn’t see the truth
The one that you did choose
Every fight was ended
With the same empty threat
Lock the bathroom door
Say you should kill yourself
Leaving me pleading
Begging to help
Now looking back
I finally see you
The coward
The liar
The vile cheat
There were so many things
You wouldn’t let me see
How you used me
Abused me
Made me question myself
Now I fear I’m ruined
Never to trust someone else
With one word
I hear ten
It’s got me on
The move again
To run so fast
So far way
A place where I
Can disappear
Somewhere that won’t
Hold such fear
I feel you slip
Move away
I knew the day
Would come to pass
Nothing good
In my life lasts
In the dead of the night
With nowhere else to go
I’ll watch the snow fall
As the howling wind blows
I’ll let the cold burrow
Deep into my bones
I’ll let my thoughts scatter
Into the unknown
Wondering what it’ll take
For me to feel at home
Wondering if I’ll ever
Stop feeling so alone
–
It took the silence of a snow fall
To ease my trembling heart
With the darkness of the world
I realized mine wasn’t falling apart
As the cold seeped in
I realized that while it might be thin
My soul was there
With out a tear
It might be a little worse for wear
But it’s still there
I won’t wake up and roll over
To kiss anyone’s face
I’ll never come home
To a warm embrace
That’s just a fantasy
That I’ll never know
It feels like it’s destiny
That I’ll end up alone
I’ve heard every reason
Know ever excuse
“Too good. Not enough.
I just can’t handle you.”
Some people are so lucky
They don’t even know
To have someone who won’t
Think of letting go
Tonight’s another night
I’ll go home on my own
In the morning I’ll face fate
I’m meant to be alone
The little girl
With a soul so sweet
Never did any wrong
That you could see
Your little girl
With her soul on fire
Pull up her sleeve
And call her a liar
You can’t see the sadness
She hides deep inside
Like she can’t see her light
Or how it shines
The little girl
With a soul so sweet
Never did any wrong
To anybody
Else, besides herself
Pull up her sleeve
And see
How the good do bleed
